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Winter Road

This is the worst part of winter for me. I don’t want to do anything but stay at home and do sedentary stuff. Mostly vidyagames at the moment. I know this doesn’t help the doldrums long-term, but I’m not sure anything does, except more light in the sky.

I don’t want to go to Cottington this weekend. I hate Ye Olde Commons’ monster camp; it’s basically someone’s basement and it’s cold and damp. I am only there Saturday, but I am stuck on desk most of the time, and doing crunchy or one-off roles when I’m not.

I don’t want to go to writing group this month. I don’t want to write. It feels incredibly pointless, like I’m shoveling words into a bottomless pit.

I’m feeling blah about Intercon. I’m actually cross-cast for two out of three roles — that’s not a bad thing, except for the part where I have to figure out costuming. And I’m so burnt out on costuming.

I’m even feeling blah about the Fifth Gate one-day this month, despite my excitement right after the last event.

I’m grumpy I’ll miss Arisia and Boskone this year due to LARP conflicts.

Things I am excited about: well, ESO, in large part at the moment, and the new friends that have come with it. New computer components winging their way to me. The Force Awakens — getting to see it again, and the glut of good fanfic that’s already out there. Cheese fondue. My fuzzy Hello Kitty pajamas. Getting to use my neat new LARP gear for the 5G one-day (even if the event itself doesn’t thrill me). The possibility of getting a tattoo this year.

At some point I should post about how I did on last year’s goals (exec summary: poorly) and what my goals for this year are (exec summary: have more fun).

I’m sorry I’m so awful at this whole seasons thing.

  1. So, this may be totally unhelpful, but have you considered getting a sun lamp? In college, I started randomly sleeping for 13 hours a day mid-winter, and they actually diagnosed me with ‘you’re living in Maine in the winter in a basement room and have classes during all of the hours of the day that the sun is out’, and said if it didn’t resolve in a couple of weeks, they’d get me a sunlamp. So.. that’s a thing. Don’t know if it would actually help in your situation, but figured I’d give it a mention.

    • That’s a good suggestion. I had one recommended to me by my pulmonologist (who treats my sleep apnea), and I investigated it, but never pulled the trigger. They’re somewhat expensive (although I did just drop $1150 on computer components…) and it’s best to use them first thing in the morning (which means getting up earlier, which… ugh). But I should probably look into them again.

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