So I made a joke in my most recent weekly update that when I post my various maunderings on in-progress books, I feel like the only person in the world who loves books this much.
What do I mean by that? Well, if I’m particularly enjoying a book — as I am the Six of Crows duology, or my (re)read of the Earthsea books — I produce a steady stream of commentary. You may have seen me do this on social media, but let me assure you, you only see a small portion of what I produce.
Why don’t I share more?
I’m not sure it’s interesting to anyone else.
If you haven’t read the book, it’s probably not interesting, and it’s usually spoilery up to the point I’ve read. If you have read the book, you may not have any patience for my partial understanding of the story up to that point. Some of it is cogent — like “I thought this plot twist was handled well for X reason” — but some of it is just silly fangirling, like “what Leverage characters would I map the Six of Crows crew to?”
A lot of it is one-off thoughts, most appropriate for social media
That very thing I am trying to use less of; that very thing I am trying to keep from taking over my life. But when I want to compare the otak from A Wizard of Earthsea to a porg, it seems appropriate for a social media post, but not so much for a blog post. Where do I share this urgently important thought???
Some of it ends up in my weekly update; sometimes I text or message someone personally with a clever thought. More often than I like I break social media silence to share it! And very rarely indeed it ends up in my Goodreads feed, which is probably the place it most belongs. (Although that, too, is social media, of a sort. Not monetized as aggressively as Facebook, certainly, but it has its small place in the attention economy).
Limitations of the media I do use
On the other hand, enough of it is long-form content that I think I would quickly outstrip the limits of the Goodreads progress updates field. (Just confirmed: yep, only 420 characters allowed, and no way to mark spoilers). You can do long-form and spoilers in reviews, but full-fledged reviews aren’t my problem — I write a lot of them here.
And there’s also the fact that audiobooks (which are a lot of my reading) make it hard to say “I paused on page 3 and had this thought.”
So I guess I’ve established that I’m comfortable using Goodreads for short, non-spoilery progress updates on print books that I’m reading, but longer form, spoilery updates that stop short of reviews? I’ve got no place for those.
Want to see an example of this, in all it’s unedited glory? After listening to a chapter of Crooked Kingdom on my commute, this is what I produced.
I’ve blanked out the spoilery bits with a background-color:white style; highlight to read them.
More Crooked Kingdom maunderings…
I listened to the Wylan chapter this morning where you learned what happened to his mother. It was heartbreaking*, and perfectly timed — the reader (at least this reader) figures out what is going on before Wylan does, but not so far ahead that it came across as predictable. It was definitely that perfect “sudden but inevitable” plot twist.
* I was going to say “heartrending”, but that has another meaning here.
(It probably helped that it’s not a plot twist, per se. While it changes Wylan’s motivation — in that he has accepted how evil his father is, and no longer wants to get back in his good graces — it doesn’t really change much about the plan going forward).
And while I’ve been harsh on this narrator, he did a pretty good job in this chapter — enough so that he at least faded into the background.
Particular things/moments I liked, more spoilery now:
– Jesper’s incredulous “You lied to Kaz Brekker and got away with it!” moment.
– The irony of Marya not recognizing her son — the inspiration of so many of her paintings — because now he’s wearing Kuwei’s face.
– Playing music to her. (Even if I do wonder how the hell he shoved a flute in his shirt). I had a few moments of “just what the hell is Wylan going to SAY to her?” and this was the perfect response to that. To quote my beloved Millay, “comfort that does not comprehend” is exactly what was needed there.
– Even though Van Eck is just this onion of awfulness that we keep unpeeling, Wylan still has pleasant memories of him reading to him, or bringing him tea when he was sick. Because real people, even awful real people who try to have their dyslexic sons killed and wall their wives up in insane asylums, don’t behave consistently all the time. And on Wylan’s side, real people also have complex relationships with family members who are terrible people.
And more spoilers, about the previous Nina and Matthias chapter, this time:
I still wonder how Nina never met Alina, if this is only two years after Ruin and Rising, she fought on her side, and furthermore that she knows Genya and Zoya and David and every other grisha of note from the trilogy. Was she not part of the group that went underground with them? Maybe I need to re-read and see if I can find her there. (I already pull that book down to consult the map all the time, because it’s the only print Bardugo book I have… though I suspect the map in the SoC books is more complete). I also wonder how she isn’t more disgusted at the mention of Retvenko, considering it’s preeeeeeetty clear from his POV chapter that he fought on the Darkling’s side of things in the civil war.
So yeah, that sure was a wall of text.
More than the logistical concerns, however, it comes back to this:
What do I want when I post stuff like this?
I want to have a dialogue with someone who’s as excited about the book as I am. Someone who is there for analysis, both trivial and literary. I want what I had when my friends and I were both excited about Babylon 5 in high school — the tiny kingdom of in-jokes and buzz that we inhabited.
This brings me back to my young adult years, where I was so desperate to talk about the books I was reading that I would randomly ask people on the street if they read fantasy. It’s cruelly hilarious that this loneliness persists today, when fantasy is mainstream.
I suppose if I were more invested in pop culture, I could inhabit that little kingdom; I could squee about the latest superhero movie or the latest episode of Game of Thrones to my friends. But few are the people I know who have read the books I read; fewer still who want to engage with them in the same way I do.
And some of this is taste. Like I know a lot of my book friends love Max Gladstone’s Craft Sequence. I’ve read the first one and enjoyed it, but I don’t feel the excitement they have for it. And so when they squee about it I have little to offer. Likewise I know, of the top of my head, five or so people who have read the Six of Crows series, and while they all agree it’s competent, engaging, fun, none of them are as into it as I seem to be. None of them want that fannish engagement with the book.
My best experiences with this have been in writing communities. If there’s anyone who cares as much as I do about books, it’s SFF writers. But that too depends on tastes matching up. My VP17 Slack has channels for The Goblin Emperor, for example, but also channels for things I don’t care about, and certainly no channel for squeeing about the oeuvre of Leigh Bardugo. (I could create one, but if no one else has read it, what’s the point?)
Ultimately, though? I want people to love books exactly as much as I do, no more or less, in exactly the same ways. That is a literal impossibility, as well as a literary one.
So I guess… what do I do with this shit? Who actually wants to read this? Should I just resign myself to the fact that the answer is “no one”? Put it in a diary and save it for my inevitable biographers? 😉
4 thoughts on “The only person in the world who loves books”
I sadly am of no help to you on the “super-excited about all books” front, but I definitely hear you on the “I want people to love my hobby as much as I do” thing. For my own benefit, I’m going to suggest that you make that Leigh Bardugo Slack channel, and then get back to work on the super-old-school D&D game that (almost) nobody I know wants to play, with the hope that we both will find our people, so to speak.
I’m mostly posting as an answer to a question on your previous entry, to say that the “subscribe via email” widget on your site does work (though that might be simply that my email is bound to a WordPress account — maybe I should have tried with an unbound email). And yeah, it did send me an email with this post inside (though, in plaintext, so the spoilers became un-hidden sadly).
Thanks for the info about the subscribe by email! So sorry about the inadvertent spoilers, though! I wonder if there’s a way to send an HTML email instead … but then you still probably wouldn’t have the custom styles I’ve put in place for this site. I will noodle on this some more, and investigate different options. Honestly, I’m a freakin’ web developer; coming up with an HTML email template that matches the design of my site and appropriately hides spoilers is well within my abilities.
(How old school are we talking? I played AD&D2E, and I’d play it again, but I’m not familiar with much farther back. But I’m also not sure I live within ‘regular tabletop game’ range of you).
Honestly, as far as the D&D is concerned, it’s more the style of play — like, I’d happily play in (or run, if nobody else is interested in running) something recent like D&D5E or another fantasy tabletop system that hovers at around that level of crunchiness, as long as I can get the High Combat, Dungeon Crawl, Rags-to-Riches Fantasy Adventure Experience in there, ideally with some castle/town/kingdom building going on there as well. And yes, I’m sure that I could wander into any nearby gaming store and achieve this, but I’d rather do so with people that I already know and enjoy gaming with, if at all possible.
I guess this is where I was going with the “make the Leigh Barbudo Slack channel” comparison — I might be projecting some, but I think we both want a world where our friends like the things we like, and it’s up to us to bring it to them, with the hope that we’ll find the people out there that match these preferences!
Anyway, good luck!
I sympathize, both on the difficulty of finding people excited about the same subset of books as me, and not really knowing what to do with random book musings.
It always seems to me like sci-fi or fantasy tv shows are few enough that any two fans can likely find *some* overlap. Not so with books. It doesn’t help that I’ve always been a slow reader, too (I’m pretty sure that for whatever reason it just takes me twice as long to consume a page than the average person). So if I read a half dozen to a dozen novels in a year, the odds of someone I know having read the same ones out of the thousands that exist is pretty slim. Easier with the very popular ones of course (like the Kingkiller chronicles, or Song of Ice and Fire series), but they’re the exceptions not the rule.
The huge backlog of books on my “to-read” list also mean that I’m probably not reading books in the year they come out either, meaning I tend to be separated from what little buzz there is. I remember trying out readercon, and thinking “this would be good if I shared points of reference with everyone in this room” but I never seemed to get that overlap.
The platform thing is something I know I’ve complained about to you before, so I won’t rehash – but man, do I not know what to do with thoughts that are too niche for Facebook, too long for twitter etc, and too casual for a legit blog.
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